I'd rather have dr pill
Saturday, June 30, 2007

I went to a birthday party with Cris yesterday. We were all very mellow but it was fun. Cris is having trouble with her main squeeze and she's reading a book by dr. Phil (nigga whut?!) on how to get and keep a man. She's going to implement all that she learns from dr-fuckin'-Phil to her relationship with this boy. I for one think dr. Phil is the most annoying man on tv right now. So gimme a break already.

This is going to be a very uneventful weekend because I've decided to cut down on my hanging-around-with-friends time. I have to focus on my thesis!!! Thank God the weather isn't that great otherwise I'd gone to the beach for sure. But sitting at my desk is the best place to be right now.

I hope y'all have lots of fun this weekend!

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My brother from another mother
Tuesday, June 26, 2007

My pal Otto came for dinner this evening and he brought the movie "The Departed" with him. I'm not exactly a great fan of cooking, but I do like to cook for him. He's such a thankful eater! It's funny because he actually never thanks me for dinner but his face just lightens up when I give him his plate. I really do love him. Anyways, "The Departed" sucked, as far as we were concerned. It was way too long and the cast was so promising but maybe they'd just cast it to pieces or something. There was no chemistry between any of the players. You've gotta have chemistry. I do think Leonardo DiCaprio did a pretty good job. It's about policemen, corruption and gangsters or mobsters or whatever the hell you wanna call them...numerous people get killed so if that floats your boat, I say go see;-)


Fighting temptation

Every once in a while I get the feeling I am being tested. And that it's God's way to teach me things about life. I know I failed in the past and I positive I'm gonna fail a bunch of times in the future but I certainly want to pass this time around. It's way too important to me to indulge, just like that. There's too much at stake here.


Sunday hangoverday
Sunday, June 24, 2007

I did absolutely nothing except watching episodes of Sex and the City which I've seen over a hundred times and reading parts of my favourite books. Cris, Emily and I went to a party, thrown by Cris' new squeeze, yesterday. The theme was trailerpark trash and there were lots and lots of wierdos! Dressed in tacky outfits! Fluorescent biker leggings, golden chain necklaces and dirty pants were the uniform of that night. I didn't dress up (or down, actually) because I really don't have an outfit like that lying around the house. So I just came as me. We totally rocked the dancefloor (according to us!) and had great fun. It was so nice to go out, just the three of us. We don't go dancing as much nowadays. Guess we're getting a wee bit older.

I've also spent some lovely time with B this weekend, we went to a museum that showed an exhibition by Yoshitomo Nara. There were these wonderful beautiful paintings but it was exceptionally cool that lots of paintings were set up in an old wooden house, with different rooms to go into to see the artwork. It was very good and I felt it's a shame that the exhibition didn't have more work. I'm a bit sad when something great is over, and always too soon for my taste.

We woke up really early to check out the exhibition so we were back outside at one in the afternoon. We decided to go to IKEA, I've wanted to go there for ages 'cause my house needs some serious improvement but we never found time during the week. B doesn't want to go on weekends because it's so incredibly busy then. He indulged me and we made a bet. He would ask me on our way out if it was as horrible as he said it was, with crying kids, long lines and stinky, sweaty people. And if he was right, then I'd have to cook him this big elaborate meal. If it wasn't all that bad he'd be the one doing the cooking.

We were only ten minutes inside when I had no choice but to tell him he was right. I'm cooking dinner this wednesday for B and his recently seperated friend.

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Far out
Monday, June 18, 2007

I ate magic mushrooms this weekend with Emily. Emily and I have this little tradition that we eat mushrooms, like once a year. We've eaten them three times now and it has been great. We went out to dinner at a really nice little place where they have organic, left-turning food (or whatever) and it was yummy! After eating our bellies round we went to the videostore and rented some dvd's: Zathura, a Jumanji-like movie, only in space and The Ten Commandments about Mozes. Yep, you heard me. We weren't going bonkers because we only took one portion and shared it. We had so much fun! The movies were so fuckin' funny, I love kids' movies!!! Especially when I'm in a psychedelic mood;-)

And that Mozes movie was pretty cool too, I fell asleep during it but we'd watched the ending the next morning. We plan on renting all those Bible movies. They have pretty big budgets and quite a good cast, actually. I was very suprised. And we learned a lot, too, although we also had quite a few laughs. For example, did you know Mozes had a very short temper and had killed various people? And that the slaves from the Farao walked from Egypt to Palestina/Israel? That's a shitload of sand they've seen... I was also reminded of the fact that it's not cool to use God's name in vain. I curse like a banshee and I like it too but I'll do my best to leave God out of it as far as my cursing goes.

We cracked lots of lame jokes but on the inside I had quite a few serious thoughts. About money, and how not-important it should be. On B and me and how we should cherish every moment we have. We're doing pretty well these days, which I'm very thankful for. I also called my Dad on father's day but he didn't pick up the phone and didn't call me back.

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What I really, really want

I wanna go somewhere with B where they serve Martini's with an olive on a tiny stick. I've never tried a Martini in my whole life!

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Tag along
Saturday, June 16, 2007

I've been tagged. Here we go, yo!

I was not in school, living with my insane (for real!) boyfriend and I was experimenting with all the illegal substances I could get my hands on. I was in a terrible state but I was also as free as a bird. I was lucky I still had all those people who cared about me!

I was writing my Bachelorthesis, running around with B, working (too many hours) as a waitress and having lots of fun with my friends. It was all good.

1. potato chips 2. noodles 3. Whoppers 4. herring on white bread 5. sunflowerseeds

I'm afraid I make up my own lyrics, so I don't know any REAL ones...

1. Pay off my student loan& my parents' debt. 2. Buy my Dad and me a nice house 3. Take a trip around the world with B 4. Buy presents for people I care about 5. Invest in something but I'd also buy lots and lots and lots of clothes all the muhafuckin' time! Guess my ass'd be broke by now...

1. SMOKING!!! 2. drinking too much& acting obnoxious and loud as a result 3. procrastinate BIG time 4. Walking away whenever I don't like something 5. doubting anyone and anything (it's a good thing I still believe in God)

1. reading 2. computering 3. hanging out with friends 4. shopping 5. sleeping (I'm being confronted with how boring I am. Thanks Misty!)

You know, I'll wear anything if the magazines say it's in ;-) Even fluorescent colors!

I wish I had one... or would B count for one?

I'm tagging CoolCatChed, Jenn, Onetalent and anyone else who reads this and likes to answer questions! (Because I don't know anyone else by name, how's that for anonymity...)

Another reason to visit Japan...
Thursday, June 14, 2007

I just came home from another AA meeting. Time goes by so fast so I'd better haul ass and write some good thesis-worthy shizzle. Only 2,5 months to go!

If you wanna have a good laugh, check this clip on youtube. It's hilarious and it's always good to see Johnny Depp! Enjoy!

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Gyllenhaal& Downey jr. what more does one want?
Tuesday, June 12, 2007

I went to see Zodiac yesterday evening, with my girl Emily. I must say, it was reeeaally good! It had a duration of about 2,5 hours but it could have gone on for another hour. Robert Downey jr. plays this alcoholic, coke sniffin' weirdo and it suits him just fine! Jake Gyllenhaal is one of the best actors from his generation (in my opinion) although he wasn't subtle enough for my taste, in some scenes. The flick's about the hunt for Zodiac, a serial killer. They chased him for years and years but never really caught him. The probable killer died before he could be punished. I think the story's the best part of this movie.


Sunday, June 10, 2007

I was so tired, I fell asleep after 15 minutes and woke up after it was over, with the tv still on. I also started smoking again. Can you imagine how I feel;-)

It still was a very good day, Karolyn came by, we had dinner together and talked a lot. I'm so happy to have her as my friend.

I also had a weird experience with a guy at the exhibition. He was a bit annoying, flirting with me and doing indecent proposalss. I told him from the very beginning where to go with that shit, especially since he'd met B the evening before and had shaken his hand. Where the hell are your manners?! Anyway that wasn't really interesting, what weird was that he totally read me. You know, he said all these things about me that were spot on. Like he saw right through me. He was 36, so he probably had knowledge of character from being a bit older but it still baffled me. How come someone who'd seen me for a few days have such insightful things to say? Guess I'm easier to read than I thought?!

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Saturday, June 9, 2007

What a week it was! Three days working at my normal job and then thu-fri-sat working at the design exhibition. I've met so many people, seen so many beautiful things, it was almost too much. It was definitely too fuckin' much for my poor feet. I am exhausted. I am a bit of a baby when I'm tired like this, I cry at the drop of a hat... I'm glad I have some time for and by myself tonight.

I'm gonna take a shower and watch one of my favourite movies at midnight "The Graduate" (D. Hoffman's best roll ever, in my opinion. And that scene with the spinning stripper tassles on Elaine's head on their first date; hilarious!!). I remember reading it in my English class when I was in high school, I was absolutely struck by this masterpiece. I can also recall how a schoolfriend of mine and me (we both had to read this book at the same time) were laughing our asses off over how much the word 'nodded' was written in the novel. That Ben sure did a lot of nodding in his time! I can see how difficult it is to believe we were actually very cool;-) Hope ya'll have a nice weekend!

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Give it up, already!
Sunday, June 3, 2007

Wow, I wouldn't have thought the lungcancer that struck my pal Jack's mother would have such effect on me. I haven't smoked in half a week and I don't want to. Whenever I have the urge I take a really deep breath and it works. I've also drunk alcohol but still, didn't want to smoke. Those damn drinks always make me wanna throw my best intentions overboard. And it also helps that I use this picture as a desktop:

So gross. I definitely want to quit.


Is it because I'm half Catholic?
Saturday, June 2, 2007

I do not like feeling guilty for something I didn't really do wrong. It's like I always feel guilty when I don't want to do something or go somewhere or when I think something you're not "allowed" to think. Who the hell makes these damn rules anyway? I really like sticking to my guns but I don't like the guilt I feel after I stuck to them.


This is me. 32-year old, mother of 1 and living in Europe. Going through life with one hell of a man, lots of love for my family and a pretty tight circle of mismatched friends. Very self-confident even though I don't know what the fuck I'm doing! (more)